I did it! I finally let all of the anger and hurt (both self-inflicted and not self-inflicted) go about a month ago. I am a much less stressed and lighter woman these days. Letting go of anger apparently lets go of 5 pounds too...I'll take it. I am working on building better relationships with the people in my life as of today. I'm back to running consistently which makes for a more mentally happy being as well. I am going to try to get back to some of my favorite interests that have fallen by the wayside in the last year as well like reading and cooking. I forgot how much I love to cook. Most importantly I am going to make sure I have quality time with my younger daughter everyday. She has been the one who has been lost in the shuffle and I intend on fixing that starting tonight. The older daughter's drama is just going to have to take a back seat for a while.
I have a birthday coming up and plan on making the second half of my life spectacular. I am going to find ways to go on vacations, I am going to find ways to help people anonymously, I am going to find ways to encourage everyone I know to be the person they dream of being and I am going to make sure I never put my children through Hell again. I have a camera sitting on my bureau collecting dust...it's time to get out and start using it. I always seem to be working and running...and I have figured out that I am missing out on life and it's time to start living. It's a little early, but I am making my New Year's Resolution now. I am going to take my daughters on some kind of adventure every month. Since I am missing out on life...so are they and that is not fair to them. Sooooo....bring on the holidays and once the gifts are opened and put away...life begins anew for one single Mom and her two kids!
